A few days ago, I told a friend that the feeling i hate the most is having to wait. Boy, I bet I sounded like a big BRAT! Come to think of it, I guess I wasn't really being clear on my point -it just occurred to me now.
It's not that I hate waiting per se because to be realistic, that's actually an inevitable thing. But I think what I really hate is the UNCERTAINTY that comes along with the wait. That's probably it, so let me rephrase that again... I really, really, reallyyyy hate the feeling of UNCERTAINTY.
You see, UNCERTAINTY brings out a lot of evils in people -paranoia, depression, desperation, and I could go on and on. It pushes one to his/her boiling point. And believe me, nothing good can ever come out of that. The worst part of course, is when we end up hurting people around us, or even ourselves. Tsk.
I guess I only have myself to blame for this one. I've gotten so used to being "SAFE" that I now have huge tendencies to fear failure. Or at least most of the time, I never give myself any allowance for lapses. It's not human I believe. Everyone should be much kinder to their selves. Now I know that I should've been and should be much more forgiving to myself.
Oh well, whatever happens, will happen. And so, it's really futile to worry. I should just focus instead and try to make things move forward for me. Because no, it's not the end of the world yet. I've got too much potential and I shouldn't let it all go to waste. =) (aherrm! see? Positive!)
P.S. I'm thankful for FRIENDS who are able make me LAUGH heartily! =D They're such Life Savers! Gamot sa Hypoglycemia! Hekhek (corney!)
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3 comments:
i don't like waiting and uncertainty as well. haha.
i hate it. it's terrible. hehehehe.
yeah it is. it will eat up all the good in you and leave you with almost nothing. if you lose in the game, you're left with a little to start over. and even if you win, it's too exhausting having to wait.
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